I am frustrated, seriously. Mad? NO. Frustrated, HELL YEA. There are six reasons on the whys. First, i'm freakin' pressured for tomorrow's results. I know I should be proud of whatever the results are but I just can't escape the fact that I may not gain that laptop. All those sleepless nights and cramming will lead to nothing once that number one spot goes to someone else. That's just the way it is. Err. :| Second, I keep on thinking about the recommendation in DLSU. I don't even know if they'll accept my plea to be transferred to BS Accountancy. I don't know what to put in that recommendation letter, that's why I keep dodging the time in making it. I don't know how to make the people in La Salle realize that I am worthy for that slot. I don't really know anything anymore, just the fact that I'm graduating in less than 10 days and I am going to a good school, not at all knowing my specific course. Third, I got into a fight with somebody. For me, it's not that serious but she's making it serious. :))) I didn't know a simple word like that can turn into a big fight like this. They say it's an insult, I say it's a code name for the person we (Carla and I) were referring to. I'm not fighting back. Do what you want and I won't care. I don't fight with someone for an immature reason. :) You know? It's simply ironic because someone told me that I was immature. Okay, I'll accept that. Maybe I did something wrong. But why fight immaturity with immaturity? Isn't that stupidity? Hoho. Think about it. :) Fourth, well it's part of the fight. The guy involved is the person I loved since like forever. Haha. And it's simply frustrating to hear that the reason I'm insulting her is because I am bitter about everything. It's an insult on my part because that's the only thing I'm proud of right now. I moved on from everything. The love subsided completely. And isn't it insulting to hear that statement? I feel that all I have fought for in the past few months of battling with the pain, just disappeared in a snap. C'mon dude, tell me every reason there is, but NEVER tell me it's because I still love you. It isn't that. I've already dealed with that. Fifth, that stupid wannabe is irritating. I thought he was smart? Why borrow my research work as a guide to his? :P Nice. Lemme remind you that you're the first person who said that you'll steal my ranking. Well, did it happen? Damn it. I may sound like a boastful person here but he's really irritating me. Why boast about something that you can't do? Very cool. :)) Sixth reason, I don't think I can tell him. I want him to know that I love him but I can't risk the fact that he may ignore me. :| Tell him or not to tell him? I'm freaking confused.
I know it's a pretty long post, but I'm making up for the time I lost. :)))
I guess I need to stop typing. :) Hoho.
Good luck and goodnight! :) ♥
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