Dear John ♥

I just finished reading yet another novel by Nicholas Sparks. This is the kind of book which you pick up and you can never be able to put it down. It has a story that catches your heart, most especially if the lesson of the novel hits you straight in the heart. Haha, I know it did to me. :)) 

I should warn you, this after the two asterisks later, I'll be giving out spoilers in which you wouldn't gain the right amount of surprise once you read the book. So unless you really want to have the whole reading experience, then I suggest you stop reading. :)) Okay, so here it goes. 

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John Tyree was a rebel since he was a kid. Mostly because his father was submissive to him and all he cared about was collecting coins. Not long after highchool, John enlisted in the army wherein he turned into a man. He learned about maturity and all that stuff. He now understood what his father meant to him and well, bottom line is that joining the army was good for him. When he had a leave, he mostly spent the time on the beach, surfing, since he and his father were not much of speakers. He saw a girl walking by and he was struck by her beauty. I don't know, maybe fate interrupted so when the girl's bag fell down to the sea, John went to go retrieve it. That's how they met. 

The girl's name was Savannah Lynn Curtis. 

I guess they hit it off and not long after they met, they fell in love. And that was when John knew he was in deep trouble. He was leaving in a few days. Army duty yet again. 

Distance did some good to Savannah and John's relationship. John's love grew stronger and so did Savannah's. But sometimes when everything's perfect, something comes along and ruins it. 

The original plan was after a few months of enlistment, John would come home and they would get married and spend their lives together forever, but the 9/11 incident happened. And that was the time John was obliged to enlist on yet two more years. From then on, Savannah grew more distant. She wrote every other week, not the usual every 7 days. John was growing suspicious but said nothing. 

When a war broke at Iraq, John and his team went to help. John was devastated because of the blood that sprawled within his sight. He was disturbed with the sight and all he sought now was the love of Savannah. Once he received the letter of Savannah, he was beaming ~ but the details of that letter devastated him.

Unforunately, Savannah was in love with someone else. 

Because of this, John enlisted in the army again even though all his friends retired. He only went home when his father's condition was going bad and he needed John by his side. John spent more time with his father and with that, his love for him grew. But again, John experienced loss. His dad left him with nothing but the coins that made his whole life and a single picture of them together, wherein they were the happiest father and son in the world. 

John sought for Savannah's care. He looked for her and once he found her, that void wasn't filled. Unfortunately, Savannah was married to Tim, a childhood friend of Savannah. John met Tim not long after he met Savannah. And from the moment he saw Tim, he knew that he was also in love with Savannah.

Savannah didn't live a fantastic life coz' Tim acquired melanoma and her life went downhill from that day. Tim told John that Savannah's love for him never disappeared and that when he dies, he wants him to take care of Savannah. That was when John realized that true love isn't just about being happy with the one you love. It's about making the one you love happy despite the fact that you might not be in his or her happiness. 


That day, John said goodbye to Savannah, promising that she will never see him again. And shortly after, John sold his Dad's coin collection in order to give money for the treatment of Tim. 


Ending? Tim lived and had a wonderful life with Savannah, while John watched Savannah from afar ~ knowing that he'd do that forever, coz' his love for her will remain til' the end. 


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SPOILERS END HERE! 
 
I'm yet another chick, falling in love with a book. :))
READ IT OKAAAY?

Don't jump to conclusions. :)

I haven't blogged about stuff since January 24. Hm, I guess I have a lot to fill you in about. :)) 

My exam scores are ~ uhh. Yeah, I guess that's the word to describe it. Haha. I always fail when it comes to the third quarter exams. It's like a yearly tradition. :P I am doubting my top 1 spot in our class. GOODBYE LAPTOP. :) Haha. If I don't make the number one spot, then I have to say goodbye to that effin' laptop, unlike other people, I have to earn my riches. :)

The week just passed by coz' apparently we didn't have classes. :)) We just spent our free time playing uno and practicing for our field demo. On Wednesday, I attended a seminar on global warming and climate change with Jane, Rochelle, Kate, Osang, Dom, Tari, Joana and Reymarc. Later that afternoon, the acoustic band competition took place. We made banners for Hue Turn, Reymarc and Tari since they were participants for that said contest. Too bad they didn't win, but at least they did their best. :) It was just a matter of the subjectivity of a certain person. Haha. :)) Peace guys. :) 

And yeah, I go something to tell you. Well, I was emotional last night coz' I thought he didn't appreciate what I did on that band thing. I was telling Kat, wala na ata talaga kong pag-asa dun. lahat na lang ng gusto ko, di pwedeng maging akin. And then I was startled when a chat box appeared. It was a simple hi from him but it made me scream on the inside. He wanted to thank me for what I did, and that was enough to make me hope for something again. :)) We talked about stuff and I swear, it's not impossible for me to fall in love with this guy. :))

I watched Kimerald's Paano na Kaya yesterday. :)) It was a nice movie. I related to some of the scenes. And yeah, before I forget, hindi sa amin ni mark. :)) Posible pang sa amin ni pagong. :)) I know we weren't bestfriends but we were close to that. Right? :P Any, I suggest you watch it. It's not a worthless movie, though it has a rushed ending. :)) 

I guess I have to stop typing. These details are useless to you readers. :)) 

Oh yeah, 

P.S. I hope you could read this. One question girl. 
How can we respect your decision when you gave up on our friendship that we built for more than 3 years? That's just *sorry for the word* BULLSHIT. 

Goodbyeuh guys. :)) 
Guguluhin ko pa si ano. Invi e. :))

Hoes over bros

January 23, 2010 

It was the best day ever. :) Nuvali is the most perfect place to escape from exams and the like. Anyway, the day was tiring but full of fun and enjoyment. Jane, Sherwin, Kat and I went to Biñan to buy the clear wayfarers. After that, we went to Kat's house. We hung out at her room and did some crazy stuff. :)) We practiced the dance moves for our field demo and we made a video! Haha. After that, Kat's father drove us to Nuvali where we fed some fish and circled the vicinity while riding a bike. :)) We had loads of fun, and a thought came to our minds. Why don't we have a class outing in that place? It's not some mall or some private pool but at least it's a place where we can relax. :)) 

Jane, Sherwin, Kat ~ sa uulitin! :)) Magimbita tayo ng iba! :)) 


Okay, so I guess I really need to blog about this. I promised myself that I won't stoop down to this level of immaturity but I guess I don't have a choice. Haha. We're not mad or anything, we just want you to understand our side of the story. I guess nothing was cleared up when we talked to you. I think what we said had a different meaning in your point of view. Well, here ~ to clear things out. 


We're not ignoring you and we're not leaving you out. There are just some conversations wherein you literally can't jive in. It's the matter of different interests. For example, I can't relate with your PBB talk coz' I don't watch it. And if that isn't the case, well, I'm sorry to say this but this was bound to happen. Don't you realize that you were absent in some parts of our everyday life? Of course we've talked about things that you don't know. We might have told stories that are interesting but you weren't there. We understand that you were with your boyfriend that time but please, don't go blaming us that you can't relate to the topics at hand. Honestly, it was really bound to happen. 

We're not making you choose between us and your boyfriend but to you, it seems that way. If you really want to balance your time with us and your time with your boyfriend, well I've got a suggestion. But before I tell you that, lemme' ask you, do you really need to spend every minute of the day with your boyfriend? I mean, like EVERY minute, every second of every day? Well, if you do, then this suggestion won't work for you. I suggest that both you and your boyfriend make time for your friends. Don't you notice that he hasn't been hanging out with his best boy buds coz' he's busy spending his lunch breaks with the girls? I mean, why don't you spend time with us and he spends time with his friends, that way, it's balanced. All we're asking is that you shouldn't be with him every time that he's free.  I know that the end of our high school life is near, and when college comes, you won't have that much time with each other, but that doesn't mean that your relationship won't work out. I mean, I'm not a relationship expert but due to what I've seen around me, you don't need to be always together when you love each other. Sometimes it's better to go on a day without the person you love, so by the time you see him, you're both longing for each other. Okay, so if you think this suggestion's stupid, then fine, it's okay with us. At least we tried giving you something to work with. Again, we're not forcing you to do this suggestion of mine. If you have different strategy, then we'll see if it works out. 


And yeah, I want to point out one thing. This will be the last time I'll blog about my friends. It's just wrong to blog about it instead of confronting them. I'm sorry to say this but it is in a way bit immature. Don't you think it hurts us to know that you have something against us through this stupid blog? Don't you think we've been trying to understand your situation since the start of the destruction of this friendship? Don't you think it hurts us to read about stuff in your blog telling us that you're ready to replace us as your friends? I mean, we've been working so hard to make this friendship work but I guess all the work we've done is useless. If you really want us to understand you, then you've got to learn to understand us. It's not supposed to be one-sided. Friendship is never one-sided. And if you can't deal with that, then ignore us all you want. Drop us if you want, but don't go blaming us for our friendship that was lost. 


You were never a victim. You just planted onto your mind that we never understand you. Try understanding us, and we'll see what happens.  Think about it.

Defeat

And when I thought I won the battle, I stabbed myself. 

This day sucks, bigtime. I haven't told my friends about this coz' I know they would be disappointed in me. My big plan of forgetting him faultered once I saw him today. I don't know why but the feeling was back. It's not as strong as before but something's still there. I thought I was over this shit but I guess there are some days that I simply don't mind him at all, but the feeling remains. Ugh, I am confused with everything now. I thought I was falling for another guy but I can't do that unless I forget about him. I don't want this guy to be a rebound coz' he's doesn't deserve to be hurt. 

Dang it. I need to forget about this. I literally haven't studied yet. :| And with this going on in my mind, I don't think I can concentrate on studying. :|


I want to go to the battle, but I can't. 
Sorry pare, I wish you the best. 


*LOL. Kung magsalita naman ako, para namang gusto nia nandon ako. :| 


Got to study.

Pictures. :))

COOL RIGHT? :)))


Eto pa,






Resulta ng pagkamiss ko kay syota. :)))) Loveyo. :)

University of the Philippines, I bid goodbye. T.T

It made me cry, honestly. I really thought I had a chance on UP, but unfortunately, there was none. I didn't know it would be this depressing. I feel so stupid coz' I didn't even pass that stupid exam. Ugh. I cried coz' I couldn't accept the fact that I will never be one of the fighting maroons. Siguro, magiging Green Archer na lang ako. It's not my dream school, but I guess it'll do. Pinipilit nga ako ng tatay ko e. Gandahan ko daw scores ko sa DLSU para makatransfer ako sa UPD. How I wish that works out. I really want to be in Diliman. Quality education kasi, but I guess I have to deal with DLSU, even though accounting's not my course there, I guess I'll just shift courses or ask for reconsideration. Ugh, tears won't stop falling. I'm trying to look strong for everybody but somehow, I just want to release these tears of mine. Siguro nga, UP just isn't meant for me. :| 

I guess I have to stop typing. You know what, the only thing that cheered me up today was when I saw him. :)) I guess, this feeling I have for him is something. :)) 


 

Shitty things

I AM IN A WAY, PISSED OFF. I know I'm not the kind of person who gets easily pissed off when it comes to taunts and teases, but this time, I can't take it anymore. It's not that it isn't true or that I'm not used to being teased, yet it's the fact that he and I are having some awkward moments because of that. Since that happened, he wouldn't even look me in the eye and ask me what's the equation for that stupid math problem. I knew that because I was the nearest person to ask but he kept on asking people who were beyond the boundaries of hearing. :| In a way, he's kinda avoiding the teases of my classmates, so that results to him avoiding me. I want us to be friends. I don't want any awkwardness between us. I want to return to those times when we just ask each other some academic related things and when we just had a special connection between us. But due to the circumstances, that will never happen. 

And another thing, I REALLY DO WANT HIM TO BE MY PROM PARTNER, but I want him to take me in his own will. I don't like when the others force him because he's the kind of person who's a gentleman. He'd say yes to even the ugliest girl in the world. :| I thank my friends for trying to help but somehow, it's much more sweeter if he himself asks me. I know it's impossible but, at least I know that US can never happen, right? Ugh ~ I am making such a big deal out of this. :| 

Any, I have something to tell you. THIS IS GOING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. :)) Lalo na friends ko. :) My love for him has lessened. Yeah, I have proven that. When I still loved him so much, whatever he does, even if it's wrong, I always tell him that he's right. I always believe him even though my friends tell me that he's lying. I always trash his enemies even though he's at the wrong side. I was surprised with myself when the word boastful and insensitive came to my mind once a friend of mine told me a band-related story. I won't name names, but dammit, I started asking myself, "Why did I fall in love with such a boastful loser? Why did I fall for a person who thinks he's the most handsome man in the world?" I was irritated, seriously. I thought it would be nice to be a friend of that guy, but that was nonsense. Tss. I'm not saying this because I'm bitter, siguro nabuksan lang talaga mata ko sa katotohanan.

I should stop blabbering about my lovelife. I know how irritating it is. Haha. :)) So I gotta say goodbye. :)) 

P.S. MISS NA KITA SYOTAAA! :)) LY. :) 

My Joys and frustrations.

Imiss you, Maria Jemil Agustin Napay! :)) Good luck sa Cebu! Kaya niyo yan! :D Uwian mo kami ng pasalubong at sigurado, madami kaming kwento pagbalik mo! :)) Gusto mo ako tumingin ng UPCAT results mo? Ingat sa biyahe tomorrow, ah? :)

Okay, so the real blog begins. I've learned a valuable lesson these past few days. If you want others to understand you, you should learn how to understand them too. This taught me that we can't be selfish. We can always say that others simply misunderstand us. Did we try to understand them even once? It's only a matter of communication with your friends. It's kinda stupid to reason misunderstanding. If you want them to understand, make them. Don't make them formulate guesses of their own. Ayt? :) I hope this taught you something. :) I know it has for me. :) 

And yeah, lemme share you my experience just yesterday. Well, I was doing our research powerpoint while waiting for my other members. 10pm ~ they still hadn't shown up. I was pissed off coz' one, member a was too busy crying over her boyfriend. Okaaaay, I know, you have problem that needs to be fixed but when it comes to my academics, studies go first then love. She kept on ranting about her boyfriend. So maybe I may seem insensitive but it was out of the line. She hadn't done anything for our project. She's the kind of person who relies on somebody else for their grade. C'mon, napakabait ko na ngang leader e. But what happened? They abused my kindness. Psh. Member B, let's just say she was the only girl who pmed me for our research project, only to ask, anong gagawin bukas? I mean, I was waiting for, "anong maitutulong ko?" but in never came. She has the same attitude as of Member A. These are the same girls who ditched me during our Chapter 2 Oral Defense. Well, screw you both. I'm getting frustrated with myself because I keep on giving you a chance but you keep on blowing it. :| And yeah, lemme tell you something. I stayed up til 2am for that fckin powerpoint while you lie on your bed, dreaming about your boyfriend. I mean, don' you even care for this project, at all? Don't you even care that a person needed your help yet you never responded? I loathe you both. Kung pwede nga lang kayong tanggalin sa grupo, gagawin ko na eh. You keep on owning up for what I did. Oh, I promise, I will make you wish that you should have never messed with me. Jacka$$es. 

Anyway, I gotta cool down. Maybe I really lack of sleep so that's why I keep on showing my bad side. I swear, I'm really kind to others, but if you piss me off, you wouldn't recognize me. Haha. :)) Okay, enough on the bag things. Let's move on to the good things that happened! :)) He's my designated partner for the entourage. Okay, so maybe my friends just talked him into it, and I'm not even sure he likes it, but I'm still glad that he'd be the first one I'd see on my prom night. :) It's my last and I want it to be special. :) I know it's just a crush but I feel so happy when I'm around him. I forget all the pain I felt when I was loving this dufus named dufus. XDDD And to tell you the truth, the pain's gone. I keep on looking at his facebook page, waiting for the pain to come but it isn't there anymore. It's as if it has never existed. I also viewed his picture with a girl, who I was so jealous of before. Once again, there wasn't any pain. I just kept thinking, ang tagal naman magonline ni ~~~ . I don't know. I consider this a huge achievement for me. Finally, I succeeded on moving on from the one person I loved for the past years. I won't say it was a waste because without that, I wouldn't have learned to be this strong and matured. And for that, I thank him. :) 

So, enough drama. I am such a blabbermouth. Haha. :)) I'll blog again tomorrow and the next day and the next day, and the next day ~ oh you get the picture. :) 

I badly need to sleep. :P 

Goodnight guys. Sweet dreams. :)

My own stupidity. XD

 

I AM CURRENTLY ADDICTED TO THE VAMPIRE DIARIES SERIES. Okay, so maybe the events in the episodes don't match what's in their books, but they absolutely got my interest! :)) It scary sometimes and I love that kind of show. Haha. It doesn't focus on vampires ~ unlike some shows ~ it focuses on mystery and love. :)) I insist that you watch it! :)) 

So, moving on.. Uh ~ it's school again tomorrow. :) I'm kinda excited coz' I'll see my classmates again. As I've said before, I'm cherishing every moment I have with them. In less than 3 months, we'll be parting ways. Ugh. And yeah, I've got rants about that stupid research project. I mean, the oral defense is due on the last week of january and I haven't even started on the fourth chapter! Ugh, this subject really stresses me out. I guess I have to be strive harder if I want that laptop. O.o OMG, I AM SUCH A GEEK. 

Oh, Hue Turn had an audition today, together with the band of Cito. I wish them the best. :) Sana makapasok sila. :) And yeah, everything's back to normal again. :) I've decided that the more I forget him, the more everything comes back to me. So, I'll still love him but this time, someone else is stealing my love and affection. Yeah, siya yun. You may think I'm using him for a rebound but it isn't. :) I like some things about him that I haven't seen with th other guy. So, make your opinions coz' when it comes to him, I only listen to the truth, not what people want me to believe. :) 

I guess I have to stop typing useless things. My sister's waiting eh. She needs to use the computer. :)) Probably to stare at someone's profile again. Kidding! :))

I miss my syota/hersheys! :))) Wala na naman siya tomorrow. :| Good luck sa Cebu Syota!:))

Loveyo. :)

 

FRIENDS = LOVE! :))

I just wanna share some pictures. :)) 
It was the first time since last christmas that we were complete. :) 
We miss you Mariel! :) 

New Year po yan. :)) 

CRAP.

Crap. That's right, I feel like effing crap. :)) It was pure stupidity to believe that something was definitely going on between us. Yeah, I think he's even keeping his distance. Uh ~ reason why? Mark told him -- scratch that, SHOUTED to the whole class that I'm in love with him. Yeah, that was embarassing, but the worst part of it is that he's ignoring me. Ugh. Why am I making such a big deal out of this?! :| Okay, I'll shut up. 


I don't know what else to say. Uh ~ did I tell you that I gave samson a retreat letter? It was like an I love you goodbye type of speech. hahaha. I guess I grew tired of the game we --- I was playing. :)) 


Gaa, I can't put off my nerves. I keep on dreaming about waiting for the results of the UPCAT. Like waiting for it while I'm awake is not enough! GAAAHD. It just irritates me coz' I need to wait for it for one more month. BLAAA. I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO DLSU. It's not the school, it's the people who got accepted. OKAAAY, bitter much?! :)) 


I hope pare and I get over all this evasiveness. I can't stand it if we're not speaking to each other. That kinda uh ~ depresses me. 


GUYS, LEMME REMIND YOU, HOES OVER BROS. 
Friends muna bago lalaki? Kay? :) 


Byeow. :))

SHITTYNESS :))))

I am the world's worst blogger. :)))) It's been a long time since I've written here and it disappoints me. Haha. I'll make it up to you. Haha. :)) I already back in school. Haha. And honestly, I'm making the most out of it. I simply can't escape the fact that in less than three months, my highschool life is over. I can't imagine my life without meeting my highschool friends and deep inside, I don't want to forget about them in the future. I want them to be my friends until I take my last breath. :)))) Okay, this is dramatic. Hahaha. Anyway, my year started well. Especially my first day back at school, once he entered, I felt my heart beating slower and faster at the same time. Haha. I don't even know if I'm falling for him because he's himself or I'm falling for him because I want to forget about the skater dood. :)) All I know is that I'm falling in love with him ~ no matter what the reason is. :) 

O yea, I have good news and bad news. Uh~ good news is I passed the DLSUCET, bad news is I didn't get in to the accountancy department. Haha. Another bad news? Skater dood passed the exam. Haha. And when I thought I could forget him once I'm in college, hahaha. Damn, I'm waiting for the UPCAT results. If I pass that, then I'll be far away from him. :))) Okay, bitter much? :))) 

I'll continue this later. Apparently, my dad's trying to get into cyberspace. :)) TTFN. :)))