Summerrrrr

I'm sorry for not posting anything here for the past few days. I'm not busy, it's just that ----- there's nothing to tell. I don't feel hurt, I don't have a crush and I don't have anything to rant about. For the first time in my life, I don't have a problem. I'm happy ---- and it's a surprise for me. Coz' all this time I thought I would be happy if i'm in love, but it only brought me heartaches. So I guess without love, I am happy. Haha. :) I'm in the stage where I want to move on, and I am doing everything to accomplish it. I guess I don't want to see BOTH OF THEM for the mean time. It'll help me move on. SWEAR. :) Haha. I'm not bitter coz' what's there to be bitter about? I just hope after my love for them is gone, that we can still be friends. :D 


Enough of that drama. Anyway, I'm officially a Lasallian Frosh! :D Hahaha. :) I guess this is the real deal. I'm going to be a college student next month and I'm not sure if I'm ready. Well my parents and my sister think I'm still immature. So, nice encouragement huh? XD I guess I can do it! I just gotta believe in myself. :) 


My friends and I are going to Nuvali on Wednesday. I missed them and I'm glad that we're going to see each other this summer. :D I'm sad that Mark won't come with us. Miss ko na yung bestfriend ko na yun e. All summer he was asking me if we could go watch a movie or if we could go to Splash Island but unfortunately, I can't go. My parents aren't that much of a fan of Mark Fernan Tividad. :)) Ayaw nila na may lalaki akong bestfriend. ULOLS. 


I filled you in! :D I gotta stop typing coz' my laptop's worn out already. I've been using this all summer. :)) My parents barely see me out of my room. :)) HAHAHA. 


Imma watch tv now. :D Goodbyeeee! :) 

Randomness

Sorry for not posting. :| Been busy, and I've got nothing to blog about. Haha. Kahit ngayon, I'm clueless on what to put here.


Hm, for the first time in the history of blog posting, I have nothing to say about anything in my life right now. I'm happy, nothing hurts ~ or maybe I just got used to it. Haha. Tough to say. Medyo kasi, wala na akong pakialam. I don't care anymore. I don't know why but I ended up careless. Haha. Cool nga eh. I don't have to worry about anything. :) 


Well maybe I do. Hm, the results of my reconsideration for Accountancy in DLSU will be posted on April 16, and I'm freakin' nervous. What if I don't get in? :| Disappointment yun sa parents ko for sure. :| I better think positive. I CAN DO IT. :) HAHAHA. I sound crazy no? :D 


Hm, what if I tell you I'm over him? Would you believe me? :D Serious question, I want a serious answer. :D


Better go na. I've nothing else to say. 

it ended just like that

I'm tired, of everything. I'm tired of wasting my time, hoping for something to happen. Maybe I was wrong. I shouldn't have wished, hoped or dreamed that I had a chance with you. It's was stupid, I know. Here I am, the person to whom people refer, 'the smart one.', trying to stop the tears from falling because of her own stupidity. I made a mistake again. The same mistake I made when I loved he-who-must-not-be named. I thought I learned something when I moved on, but I guess, some things just don't change. I loved a person who loves someone else. WOW, BIG SURPRISE THERE. The only difference is that I told the second guy that I loved him. Maybe that makes a huge difference between them. The fact that I said those three words, it's different. 

I shouldn't be crying like this. EVERYONE told me that there was no hope from the start, but I didn't listen. He already dodged the topic of me liking him but still, I hoped for something. She already confessed that he told her he loves her, but still, deep inside me, I hoped, for something to happen. But once again, I made a huge mistake. One that'll change everything. 

My head aches. My freaking heart aches. 

Two heartbreaks in my highschool life. Boyfriends? Zero. 

Very cool, ayt? 

kthxbye. :|