I'm a driver! :D

I am literally freaking out. Hahaha. Had my 2nd day of driving lessons today and I can say that I was quite progressive. My only problem is that I get nervous. Once I get inside that car, my heart starts beating fast. Haha. The instructor's laughing at me coz' my whole body would freeze while he's giving instructions on how to turn properly. EPIC. :D Wish me luck. Hoho. Plends, ako na ang desidnated driver, kung may kotse! :)) 


Aryt, mixed emotions these past few days. 5 days from now and I'll be going to school! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Excited coz' I'll be able to see my blockmates again coz' they are awesooooome. Nervous coz' well~ of the professors. Hahaha. I'll tell you all about it right after my first day. :) 


I'm worried about my bestfriend. He's got a lot on his mind and I'm not there for him. Hm, the least I can do is use my sun sim and call to reassure him. :) Sana maayos na problema niya. :) 


Okay, I don't have anything else to say. I don't have a major problem and I'm happy about that! :D 


Goodbyeeee. :) 

HATE

I hate what I'm feeling right now. Seriously. 

I can't quite explain it coz' I don't want to admit it. No. I don't want to tell myself that I fought for nothing, that I moved on for nothing. It hurts to know that I'm still affected. I guess I deserve a big 'I told you so' from my friends. C'mon guys, lay it on me. Maybe it's just because I lost our friendship. I miss him, bigtime, but what can I do? He's smiling in the arms of another. 

Uhh. I really hate myself right now. Don't make me feel worse okay? I'm torturing myself over this and I hope no one teases me or anything. Arayt? I'm punishing myself already, that's enough. 

I hope I can forget you. Pleaaase. 

Stupid thoughts in my head

I don't know how or why but I ended up typing in my stupid blog. Err, I guess I have a lot on my mind but I'm not sure I should tell you all of it. I can't even tell my friends what's going on. I don't even know what's going on so why should I tell them, ayt? 

It's just that something's happening. It's the unthinkable, really. I don't know if it's real or I just want someone to replace---- err. Never mind. I guess this is nothing. I shouldn't make it a big deal. I'll just receive a big, 'i told you so' from my friends. Ha-ha. 

I'm actually stuck at my room with speakers programmed to the highest level of volume. I just want silence. I mean I want the music to block whatever I'm thinking right now. It's working coz' all I do is sing along with the music. You can also see my loss of focus with my blog right here. It doesn't make any sense, right? 

STUPID. STUPID. STUPID. 

Uhh ~ 

I'll stop. I might say something I'll regret later. 

Elections

The results of the Elections is stressing me out. Seriously. Though I'm not a voter, I'm really irritated by the results. 


All hail our new president, Noynoy Aquino. 


He won. Great. 
Hope he doesn't embarrass his father's name. 

The feeling is GONE

I am officially a student of De La Salle University - Manila. I posted my schedule on my facebook account, so if you're a close friend of mine, check it out! :) I had a fun enrollment day and I'm actually excited to go to school! :) Of course there is a hint of anxiety but the excitement overshadows it. HAHA. I guess this is the day I'm going to say that I'm ready to be a college student! 


Umm, I should tell you why I barely blog about my boring life. It's plain stupidity but I have to tell you. I don't feel anything, for both of them. It also surprised me coz' I thought it would take forever to move on. But there is the fact that no one believes me, even if I do tell the truth. Some proof that I've moved on? (1) I do not think of them anymore. They don't randomly enter my mind whenever I see something that reminds me of them. (2) I don't feel a thing whenever I go through C's letter or R's text messages. The cloud nine feeling is gone. (3) I wasted hours looking at their facebook profile, but still, the feeling wasn't there. It's like it disappeared before my eyes. (4) I do miss them. I cannot deny that, but I can say that I miss the friendship. Most especially C's. We were like best friends, and our friendship was destroyed once I loved him. MY friendship with R was different. And I guess, we're still friends. But there is this certain wall that I made, that blocks our way to understand each other. So to my friends that don't believe me, I miss them, and I do love them, but not like before. I love them as my friends and if you don't believe that now, you'll eventually do. :) 


So here's another dilemma, I DO NOT FREAKIN KNOW HOW TO ENJOY MY SUMMER! I can't go out with my friends coz' my parents think I have a boyfriend, and I don't have money! My family isn't proposing a vacation on some place coz' we're saving up for the house. I guess that is reasonable. Hmm, give me an awesome way to spend my summer, please? 


And yeah, I have to rant about this. I THINK NOYNOY'S GOING TO WIN. Err. :( Even though I don't want that to happen, I can't do anything about it. It's not like I can vote anyway. And what the F, random thought, sorry! :)) 


I've been thinking of changing my blog theme. I'm going to do it right after I type this random blog post. 


So, till next time then? 
Ta-ta.