To Rant or Not To Rant?

This is me, thinking of nothing to blog about. I mean, I've been like this for the past few months. Ganito pala nagagawa sayo ng walang lovelife no, wala kang malagay sa blog. Believe it or not, my life is generally peaceful. My friends, my family, my lovelife is stable. Though there are a few problems, it's not that big to rant about. But since I have nothing else to say, and for the sake of humoring you with my small scale problems, I'll type em' here. 


I don't know what to say to my bestfriend to cheer him up, or even just make him feel that this is not his karma. I feel like I'm a useless friend for letting him feel like crap about himself. We recently reconciled for our first major fight, but it seems like I've lost the ability to make him feel better. I always make him feel better. Even if it's his fault, I make him feel self-righteous, but right now, NOTHING. I have nothing to say to tell him that he doesn't deserve this and that he shouldn't torture himself over this. I know he keeps trying to keep a straight face and tell everyone that he's okay but I know deep inside that everything's screwed up. The girl says that they just need space and personally, I think she's right. But that doesn't mean that they shouldn't remain as friends. Mark loves her. I haven't seen him like this for a very long time and even though they aren't a couple right now, I believe that eventually, they will be. She's the only girl that I'm in favor for and I'm wishing---hoping that this would be fixed. That way, Mark will be happy again. And I can feel that I've helped in some way. 'Coz right now, I feel like a very crappy, useless bestfriend. 


Kat has dengue. I'm worried about her. She's got a load of problems on her head right now and with this comes her unexpected sickness. She's confined in a hospital and I'm problematic about when to visit because I can't find the time. I must find a way to visit her. At least if I see her, my worry would subside because I'll know that she's okay. :| Wow, I noticed, I'm very clingy with my friends. 


It's gone. My love for him is gone, and I'm not used to it. My whole high school life I believed that he was the one, that I cannot find anyone else. But here I am, wondering why I feel so empty. Once that feeling went away, I feel like there's something missing inside of me. Of course, not all the love is gone. There's some left, the amount of friendship. The love that is left is for the friendship and for the fact that I did love him, and we did have memories. Those memories will be locked up in my heart forever. 


I had the most BV day today. We just came from Subic and I slept around 11-ish? Well sadly, I woke up at 6am because no one was able to wake me up. (FYI, alarms don't work with me) I was able to leave the house around 6:15 and huraaah!, traffic started from Susana Heights. (BTW, I rode the Cher transport for the very first time) Anyway, I closed my eyes and just let the music from my phone fill my head. When we passed by the sucat area, we started smelling a foul smell, like a smoke coming from a unmaintained jeep. Once we step foot in Skyway, the bus overheated, thus stranding us in the middle of the sun's heat. We waited for a bus but every one of them was full, so we rode the bus-in-tow to Magallanes and waited for a bus there. Luckily, one came. (Another Cher Transport) Anyway, I was able to reach school around 10am. HAHA. I missed my Accounting class. THIS IS A FAILURE FOR ME. They discussed something and I wasn't there. Damn it, this is all my fault ---- and MMDA I might add. They're the people who declared this day a NO CODING day. Where they are under a stupid administration---peace out Homer Simpson supporters. Never liked him. 


Anyway, I must continue this tomorrow? I gotta go check on my brother if he's sleeping. :| TTFN. 


With much love, 

SABAAAW

Damn it. I haven't blogged about a lot of things. HAHAHA. This is the effect of being a college student. You've got loads of time, but you're sooooo TAMAD to type. HAHAHA. K, I'm so crazy. 


Anyway, I'm having loads of fun at school. I pass my exams, which is good because I want to shift to BS Accountancy! HAHA. I bond with my blockmates so I can have an equal amount of social life with my academics. LOL. Sh1t, sorry for the uselessness of this blog post. I'm so sabaw kasi e. HAHA. 


A girl randomly said thank you to me, which is weird. Haha. Maybe she's retarded or something. K, I'm so mean. >:) This is what she gets for not thinking for herself. And to think I called her once my friend. 


Sometimes I wonder if our friendship (Mark's and I) went back to normal. Hm, guess not. Nagbago na siya e. He's not the same Mark that I knew. Bahala na. At least we've patched things up. There just comes a time when everything falls apart and I have to deal with that. It's kind of easy naman e. 


K, random, I'M SO KILIG SA ENDLESS LOVE. HAHAHAHA. I'm so sabaw today so forgive me. LOL. 


I'll end your misery. I'll stop typing, promise. TTFN.