HATE

I hate what I'm feeling right now. Seriously. 

I can't quite explain it coz' I don't want to admit it. No. I don't want to tell myself that I fought for nothing, that I moved on for nothing. It hurts to know that I'm still affected. I guess I deserve a big 'I told you so' from my friends. C'mon guys, lay it on me. Maybe it's just because I lost our friendship. I miss him, bigtime, but what can I do? He's smiling in the arms of another. 

Uhh. I really hate myself right now. Don't make me feel worse okay? I'm torturing myself over this and I hope no one teases me or anything. Arayt? I'm punishing myself already, that's enough. 

I hope I can forget you. Pleaaase.