October Madness

Guess I haven't dropped by here in over a month now. I was busy with school and the like. Err, scratch that. I wasn't really busy, I just didn't have anything to write. My life's been boring ever since I became a college student. Yes, I've drank alcohol, cut class, and walked from Padre Faura to Vito Cruz. It's fun, but everyone knows I'm the type of girl who is too much of a good girl than  bad girl. Everything bad I did didn't amuse me. It's like I lost my fun bone in my body. Everything's screwed up coz' I don't know how to have some serious fun. Sometimes I wish I was in highschool again. The time when I didn't care if my grades were down or if having fun meant breaking the rules. I was careless back then and right now, I got a lot of questions in my head. "Will doing this mean that I won't be able to enter the BSA program?", "Will this affect my studies?" I know I sound like such a nerd but ughhhh, I feel like that right now. :|

SH1T. I NEED TO GET A LIFE.

So, It's October and I got a lot of people to greet. My brother, Anton, coz' he's celebrating his 8th birthday, Pat and Chat, my college friends, for their 17th and 16th birthday, respectively. :) And yeah, his birthday's also coming up and I'm still thinking if I should greet him or not. Haha. Sometimes, I wished my birthday was on this month so my birthday and Christmas gift wouldn't be the same. Hahaha. I sound so selfish. :)) 

My parents are here, so I gotta go. Cyber huuuug! :"> >:D< ♥

I died.

I died and he didn't care. It was my usual dream. This wasn't the first time that I saw myself lie in a coffin and watch people cry over my body. I know you may think I'm weird but the reason why I dream about this is because I think about it before I sleep. What if I die, will he cry? That was my usual question. And everytime I dreamt about that before, he didn't care. He would go to my wake but he would just smirk. Not once have I felt that he valued my life. This time, the dream was different. He came to my wake with his girlfriend in tow. Surprisingly, there were tears in his eyes. Tears that weren't just for a show. He neared my coffin and whispered, Akala ko ba di mo ko iiwanan? Sino na ang magmamahal sa akin ng walang hangganan? I love you, Reena. And I regret not telling you in person. Once he said that he let go of his girlfriend's hand and straightened up. Once he turned his back at the coffin, for a second, I thought he looked straight at my ghost. He winked and smiled. 


HAHAHAHAHAHA. CRAZY DREAM NO? :)) This all came right after I visited UST last Friday. I saw Cito, Reymarc, Rochelle, and Tari. :)) Cito looked like a stoner(JK), Rochelle became more beautiful, Tari grew taller and Reymarc, well his hair grew longer. I missed them and apparently, a single Friday isn't enough. I shall visit them again! :) 


Sh1t. I have loads to tell you but I need to sleep. :| I'm very sleepy naaa! :D 
Enjoy this post. I shall post a long one on Wednesday for I will study for Accounting and College Algebra tomorrow. 

To Rant or Not To Rant?

This is me, thinking of nothing to blog about. I mean, I've been like this for the past few months. Ganito pala nagagawa sayo ng walang lovelife no, wala kang malagay sa blog. Believe it or not, my life is generally peaceful. My friends, my family, my lovelife is stable. Though there are a few problems, it's not that big to rant about. But since I have nothing else to say, and for the sake of humoring you with my small scale problems, I'll type em' here. 


I don't know what to say to my bestfriend to cheer him up, or even just make him feel that this is not his karma. I feel like I'm a useless friend for letting him feel like crap about himself. We recently reconciled for our first major fight, but it seems like I've lost the ability to make him feel better. I always make him feel better. Even if it's his fault, I make him feel self-righteous, but right now, NOTHING. I have nothing to say to tell him that he doesn't deserve this and that he shouldn't torture himself over this. I know he keeps trying to keep a straight face and tell everyone that he's okay but I know deep inside that everything's screwed up. The girl says that they just need space and personally, I think she's right. But that doesn't mean that they shouldn't remain as friends. Mark loves her. I haven't seen him like this for a very long time and even though they aren't a couple right now, I believe that eventually, they will be. She's the only girl that I'm in favor for and I'm wishing---hoping that this would be fixed. That way, Mark will be happy again. And I can feel that I've helped in some way. 'Coz right now, I feel like a very crappy, useless bestfriend. 


Kat has dengue. I'm worried about her. She's got a load of problems on her head right now and with this comes her unexpected sickness. She's confined in a hospital and I'm problematic about when to visit because I can't find the time. I must find a way to visit her. At least if I see her, my worry would subside because I'll know that she's okay. :| Wow, I noticed, I'm very clingy with my friends. 


It's gone. My love for him is gone, and I'm not used to it. My whole high school life I believed that he was the one, that I cannot find anyone else. But here I am, wondering why I feel so empty. Once that feeling went away, I feel like there's something missing inside of me. Of course, not all the love is gone. There's some left, the amount of friendship. The love that is left is for the friendship and for the fact that I did love him, and we did have memories. Those memories will be locked up in my heart forever. 


I had the most BV day today. We just came from Subic and I slept around 11-ish? Well sadly, I woke up at 6am because no one was able to wake me up. (FYI, alarms don't work with me) I was able to leave the house around 6:15 and huraaah!, traffic started from Susana Heights. (BTW, I rode the Cher transport for the very first time) Anyway, I closed my eyes and just let the music from my phone fill my head. When we passed by the sucat area, we started smelling a foul smell, like a smoke coming from a unmaintained jeep. Once we step foot in Skyway, the bus overheated, thus stranding us in the middle of the sun's heat. We waited for a bus but every one of them was full, so we rode the bus-in-tow to Magallanes and waited for a bus there. Luckily, one came. (Another Cher Transport) Anyway, I was able to reach school around 10am. HAHA. I missed my Accounting class. THIS IS A FAILURE FOR ME. They discussed something and I wasn't there. Damn it, this is all my fault ---- and MMDA I might add. They're the people who declared this day a NO CODING day. Where they are under a stupid administration---peace out Homer Simpson supporters. Never liked him. 


Anyway, I must continue this tomorrow? I gotta go check on my brother if he's sleeping. :| TTFN. 


With much love, 

SABAAAW

Damn it. I haven't blogged about a lot of things. HAHAHA. This is the effect of being a college student. You've got loads of time, but you're sooooo TAMAD to type. HAHAHA. K, I'm so crazy. 


Anyway, I'm having loads of fun at school. I pass my exams, which is good because I want to shift to BS Accountancy! HAHA. I bond with my blockmates so I can have an equal amount of social life with my academics. LOL. Sh1t, sorry for the uselessness of this blog post. I'm so sabaw kasi e. HAHA. 


A girl randomly said thank you to me, which is weird. Haha. Maybe she's retarded or something. K, I'm so mean. >:) This is what she gets for not thinking for herself. And to think I called her once my friend. 


Sometimes I wonder if our friendship (Mark's and I) went back to normal. Hm, guess not. Nagbago na siya e. He's not the same Mark that I knew. Bahala na. At least we've patched things up. There just comes a time when everything falls apart and I have to deal with that. It's kind of easy naman e. 


K, random, I'M SO KILIG SA ENDLESS LOVE. HAHAHAHA. I'm so sabaw today so forgive me. LOL. 


I'll end your misery. I'll stop typing, promise. TTFN.

Pilyang Kerubin

Finally, after 13 days, we patched things up. He just needed a reason to open a conversation with me. This may sound negative but I gave up 3 friends but I gained our friendship again (Mark's and mine). I fought with 3 of my CLOSEST friends because of a dare. I knew I might hurt them with what I said, that's why I said sorry, but they didn't acknowledge it. Some say that they valued their image to others rather than our friendship. Well I just hope we can patch things up coz' I hate fighting with people. I'm still happy that that happened coz' without that fight, Mark and I won't be able to reconcile. :) Cool. 


I was so happy yesterday coz' I aced the graded recitation in FILKOMU. I studied really hard in that subject including COMP1BU for the long quiz. I was able to answer most of the questions. Hope I have a good grade. 


My classes don't start til' 2:40pm so I'll do my accounting homework tomorrow, once I buy worksheets.I'm dedicated to shifting to Bachelor of Science in Accountancy. Oha, complete~ :)) 


K, I don't know what else to say. :) Goodbye. 

The A-Team

You all must watch The A-Team! :D Personally, I can say I liked it a lot. :D Not only is Bradley Cooper shirtless all the time, but he's good in playing his character. :) It was full of suspense and action. Though I'm not all for that kind of movie, I still liked it. You will be amazed on how creative they plan out an ambush. :D 


I guess that's all I wanted to say. I want to watch Ninja Assassin on the comforts of my own home. :D I bought a DVD! :D HAHAHAHA. Pirated of course. :) Hoho. 


Brb. It's playing already! :) 

Friendship OVER.

Sorry for being sooo inactive these past few days. I've been busy with my college life. :)) So here, I'm present and will tell you everything that has happened! :) 


College life is surprisingly fun. Though the work load in school increased by a dozen times, I'm still enjoying it. I love my blockmates. I already consider them as my close friends. :) Masaya sila kasama e! :D Anyway, I won't elaborate on that fact since I'll only bore you. Lezz just say, I came home from Taft with alcohol in my system nung June 16. :) SHHHH lang. :D :)) But it was awesome! And it's a one time thing so don't expect me to drink all the time. :)) 


And yeah, FO na kami ni bestfriend. I got mad at him for smoking, he got mad at me for caring and tada! FO. :)) I said sorry but he didn't care at all. Bahala na siya, it's his choice. :)) Male ego is my enemy here, not him. He even told my friends, 'Di muna ako makikipagayos, nageenjoy pa ko e.' BITCH MUCH? I was torturing myself over the fact that we were fighting and he's enjoying it? WELL FU. :| 


Worst bus ride a while ago. I was seated between 5 guys. (Yung upuan sa back.) They kept asking me questions from 'Ano number mo?' to 'Miss, anong sexual position gusto mo?' SHIT DIBA? I will never ride BBL again. :| 


Anyway, I gotta watch langit sa piling mo! Byeeee! :)